My Take on Gender: It’s Complicated…But Not Really

Hi! I consider myself a pretty out and proud trans person, yet with the exception of when I’m with friends who I trust, or when I’m asked specifically to write or speak on this subject, I’m generally not really vocal about my gender identity and how I feel about it because in my mind, those who’s opinions on me I really care about already know in some manner and really, that’s all that matters. On the other hand, I’ve done a lot of workshops related to the topic (gender and gender identity that is, not MY gender specifically) because although I don’t really fancy myself an “educator” in any way, I personally would like to think that people in general have the potential to treat people in the transgender, genderqueer, intersex, and questioning (TGIQ) communities with respect if they are informed, and given the opportunity. In that spirit, I’d like to offer my cisgendered friends the following (hopefully helpful) suggestions:

If the subject comes up, and I tell you that:
a)I identify as trans/genderqueer/gender-fluid, and that b) my pronoun of choice is “she” just respect what I just said, and TRY to remember it.

As I said previously, I’m pretty up front about my gender identity if asked, and I am generally really easy going as far as pronouns go. Slip ups happen. All I ask is that people try to remember. However, if I tell you my identity and pronoun of choice and you start making me prove it, or say some BS thing like “you don’t LOOK trans we’ve got problems.

If you screw up on my pronoun and identity, apologies are fine, but don’t make excuses, don’t try to blame me, and just simply don’t do it again.

On a related note, if you have a question about what pronoun a friend of mine goes by, don’t ask ME, ask THEM!

This is honestly not so bad when it comes to crap people do. It’s just that if you have a question about someone’s identity, and you’ve got it in you to ask it, why not just ask the person? Just ’cause I identify as trans doesn’t mean that I’m going to know how another trans person identifies. Even if I do, more often than not I don’t want to be put in a position where I’m talking about, or speaking for someone else. Save yourself a step, and spare me the risk of feeling more awkward and just ask the person. if they say they don’t wanna talk about it, just move on but I’m not another trans person’s spokesperson

Don’t talk to me about passing.

Just because I look and dress the way I do doesn’t mean I don’t constantly think about my own gender identity and how people perceive me. If I’m at a point where I’m worried about how people view me, I will bring it up to people I know support me. Unsolicited opinions are often not helpful. Unless you are Miss Lola, and a few select folks, I do not exist to please you.

On a related note, unless you are the aforementioned select few people, don’t give me suggestions about how I can “pass better”.

Again, if I need suggestions about wanting to look more feminine, I’m quite capable of asking someone who I trust. I know I don’t “look trans” in the eyes of a lot of folks- both trans and non-trans. I appreciate people trying to be helpful, but my experience is that unless someone’s known me for a while, MOST of the time even when people mean well, their suggestions are at best not helpful, and at worst offensive. Let’s just make it easier for everyone.

Save me the “but I like you more as a…” routine.

This is not about YOU.

Don’t ask me about whether or not I’m going to have “the surgery”.

First of all, there is more than one “transition-related procedure” if you will, so I don’t know what you mean most of the time when you ask about “the surgery”. Secondly, regardless of which procedure you’re referring most SRS surgeries are EXPENSIVE (for top surgery, people have gotten quotes from 7K all the way up to 15K). So personally, if you have the money to give me, the answer is “probably.” If you don’t, I don’t wanna hear it.

If the topic of hormones comes up, just trust me on what I say.

I was once on estrogen. I’m now possibly looking into going back on hormones- eight years later. So yes, I’ve had time to think about it; I know the health risks, and I know what I’ll be giving up. I’m an adult, I clearly remember going over this with my doctor. Getting the lecture is not helpful.

Don’t ask me why I’m not talking to my family about it.

If you’ve ever chosen to keep something pretty major a secret from people, I’m just going to assume you knew how best to handle that situation. I’m just asking you give me that same respect.

For dude’s sake! Keep an open mind!

There are more gender identities than male and female. A lot of people even believe that there more sexes than male and female. There’s more to people than what you know. Do yourself a favor, if not anyone else, and accept that people can be something you’re not familiar with.

I’m okay with talking about my gender identity, but I’m NOT okay with having to feel like I have to justify my identity. I know people who feel more or less the same way. Straight, cisgender, rich, white men aren’t generally made to prove they’re worthy of their identity. I believe that I too deserve that kind of respect.

PLEASE don’t ask me if my identifying as trans has anything to do with me feeling like I don’t fit in.

Just to be clear, the answer is NO. plain and simple.

If you have a question that’s gender-related, feel free to ask me. Just don’t start the question with “I don’t mean to be offensive”.

It all goes downhill from there. Trust me!

And finallythese are my suggestions and my opinions. Please do not assume that I speak for all TGIQ folks. If you do, you’ve basically negated everything I’ve just said.

Ultimately, I know I have little to no control how people are going to think, and what people are going to do. I guess there’s a part of me that just wants to spread the message of how people can treat others better. Additionally, I’ve been told I don’t stand up for myself enough and so I think I’m writing this at the very least to say that if you get to exist as you are without being questioned, or made to prove yourself, so do I. You don’t necessarily have to support me; I just ask that if you don’t, that you get out of the way. That’s all.


Owned and operated by her loving dominant, Sailor identifies as a sober, genderqueer, switchy, service submissive and volunteering addict with a particular appreciation for ageplay, sharp objects, and hard, thuddy things. She currently co-hosts three events: "Transmission" for kinky trans folks, their friends, and their lovers and "Vibe" for kinky people of color and people who love and support them (both of those are held at SF Citadel), and the San Francisco Littles Munch (at Wicked Grounds) for people who're into or curious about age play. When not serving her dominant or her community, or running around in a dungeon Sailor enjoys, reading, writing, hanging out with friends, and conversations over good coffee. You can read more of Sailor's writing on her blog at, or by following her on Twitter at @sailoralecs.

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