Asexuality and Sexual Fluidity

I once knew a guy who started every one of our few and far between conversations with this line:

“So, are you still asexual?”

The third or fourth time he asked me that question, I got irritated and asked him to stop saying it every time we spoke. Want to guess his reaction?

A. He apologized and agreed to stop?

B. He said it’d been a joke and agreed to be more considerate in the future?

C. He defended his right to keep asking every time we spoke because it’s a completely fair question, and added a nice side dish of “you’re too sensitive”?

Yes, friends, the answer is of course C.

placeholderAfter an extensive discussion of why repeatedly asking me if I’m “still asexual” is NOT, in fact, a “fair question,” I stopped talking to him.


Because no matter what I said about my orientation being as likely to change as his, he maintained that he can in fact be positive he’s heterosexual while I cannot be sure of being asexual, because asexuality is not really an orientation. It is nothing. It is a blank space. A blank space waiting to be filled with something. An undecided state. A negative waiting to turn into a positive. A “not yet.” So why shouldn’t he keep prodding me to find out if I’ve grown out of that silly indecision yet? It’s only a matter of time, right? One of these days the answer will be different, right?

(Spoiler: Actually, asexual IS a sexual orientation.)

Many of us who are not straight are more familiar than we’d like to be with being regarded by friends and loved ones as simply “going through a phase.” Until we have settled down into a stable, universally acceptable relationship like those of our heteronormative pals, we are still on a road, which is code for being on our way TO something. They don’t accept the gay, bi, poly, pan, and ace exits as being actual destinations. And furthermore, to them, the highway itself isn’t an orientation either, even though some travel on it constantly without “settling” anywhere.

Asexual people get very tired of being told we’ll change one day (“when we meet the right person” or “when we get over our issues” or “when we mature more”). But what about the people who do?

fluiditySexual fluidity is a thing. Most asexual people–like most straight, gay, bi, poly, and pan people–are not sexually fluid. But some are, and when we talk about asexuality specifically and sexual orientation broadly, we need to make sure to acknowledge sexual fluidity. People who discover they’re sexually fluid after identifying as asexual (or any other orientation) may experience shame and may fear coming out or pursuing their desires, simply because they don’t want to fulfill the “I told you so” taunt and make asexuality look bad for all of us.

So what can we do–both inside the asexual community and within the larger bubble of sexual diversity education–to retain the flexibility that will make our communities friendly to sexually fluid people?

1. Stress labels as descriptions, not decisions. We use labels as ways to communicate what we want, not what we’re allowed to want. If what we want changes, we expand or change how we describe it, the same as we change what restaurant we go to when our appetite changes.

2. Promote inclusivity, not exclusivity. Sexual identity should never be approached as “you can’t identify as X if you Z.” For instance, a bisexual person who has never dated a same-sex partner does not have to do so to “qualify.” Educate people to acknowledge the identity and label a person chooses instead of looking for reasons they shouldn’t be choosing them. They will not “ruin” the word or distort its meaning if they’re using it differently than you; most people use labels to communicate, and if they find the word they’re choosing is communicating the wrong message consistently, they will probably stop using it for their own reasons.

3. Include an understanding of broader terms, not narrower terms. Encourage people to grow their labels to include more attraction experiences. A man who is attracted to many genders would be best described as polysexual or pansexual instead of as “switching between straight and gay” (suggesting whichever gender he is attracted to at the time is what defines him). Unless he prefers switching his term depending on who he’s dating, the term that describes his entire experience of attraction is usually the best fit.

From Sociology of the Family by Ron Hammond Ph.D. & Paul Cheney Ph.D.

From Sociology of the Family by Ron Hammond Ph.D. & Paul Cheney Ph.D.

4. Separate orientation and behavior. In other words, your identity should be described as what you want, not as what you have done or have been willing to do. Having sex with genders you aren’t attracted to doesn’t mean you must shift your label to match your experiences, and having attraction to genders you haven’t “tried” on the dating field or in your bed doesn’t mean you aren’t really deserving of the broader term.

5. Acknowledge destinations and highways equally. I drove for a while and got off at the asexual exit, and nothing has compelled me to get back on and look for something I like better. Most peoroadsignple get off at one of the plentiful and popular heterosexual exits. That doesn’t mean everybody else who found happiness at a different exit just needs to travel more until they find their real destination. But traveling itself? That can be a “destination” too. Some people are always driving, trying various stops, and getting back on. They’re not confused–at least, not by definition. They may just enjoy driving and feel most comfortable on the road instead of parked.


My straight “friend” up there treated me like I haven’t found my exit yet because it wasn’t his exit. He perceived me as still driving even though I told him I wasn’t, and that was his mistake. But being a perpetual driver is not shameful, regardless of whether you’re questioning, undecided, or fluid. Freedom to wander is vital, but pressure to keep driving until you find a different exit is not supportive–especially if someone else decides your exit doesn’t count as a “real” stop. In a world populated by all kinds of drivers, we need to learn the rules of the road.

orientationisAs a diverse community, we must establish a culture that doesn’t punish people for exploring and learning new ways to describe their experiences. We also must avoid shaming people who haven’t experimented as much as someone else might have needed to in order to find their true orientation.  Fostering education about both asexuality and sexual fluidity will help reduce invalidation of both . . . and it may help previously asexual-identified people shamelessly adjust their chosen label if they find themselves getting back on the road.

You can learn more about sexual fluidity in Candace Walsh’s Huffington Post article or Dr. Lisa Diamond’s book Sexual Fluidity.


October 20 through 26, 2013 is Asexual Awareness Week. You can learn more about asexuality at the Asexual Visibility and Education Network (AVEN), at any of the links recommended by Asexual Awareness Week, or check us out in the asexual tags on Tumblr.


Swankivy is a writer, singer, and artist from Florida, USA. She writes fiction and nonfiction under the name Julie Sondra Decker, and is currently pursuing publication for her fantasy series. Her nonfiction book on asexuality, THE INVISIBLE ORIENTATION, is available from Skyhorse Publishing (September 2014). Swankivy is heavily involved in asexuality awareness and produces two YouTube series on the subject: The Asexuality Top Ten and Letters to an Asexual. She has also written asexuality-related essays on her website and on Tumblr, and she has appeared in the media consistently giving interviews to magazines, films, television, and radio. As an aromantic asexual person, swankivy is happily single (not looking!) and has an active social life, and she is always buried in creative projects. She also runs a weekly fantasy webcomic and a monthly comic strip about the writing life. She also likes karaoke, baking, biking, tennis, Dance Dance Revolution, decorating, reading, and avoiding sleep. When swankivy has to work for a living, she functions as an administrative assistant and a freelance editor, and she majored in music and education at the University of Florida.

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6 Responses

  1. bananaslugs says:

    Great article! It articulates some confusing issues I’ve been going through. I had thought of myself as asexual until fairly recently, when at the age of thirty-something (to my utter shock and surprise), I met someone I actually wanted to have sex with. Prior to this, the thought of sex was about the equivalent of brushing my teeth – it was supremely boring but I didn’t have anything against it either. Now I don’t know what to call myself.

    I’ve only come out to a few people but I’m worried about someone pointing to me as an example of “See! Asexuality isn’t a real thing!” I’m also worried about what my ace friends will think.

    Occasionally, there are instances of heterosexuals feeling attracted to someone of the same sex, or homosexuals feeling attracted to an opposite sex person. That doesn’t mean that heterosexuality and homosexuality aren’t real orientations. The same goes for asexuality.

    Your former friend is an idiot. I’m glad you cut him off. It wouldn’t be okay to ask, “So R U still gay?” Why do some people think it’s okay to do this to asexuals? Ugh.

    • swankivy says:

      Oh, that’s interesting. You know, feeling that you weren’t asexual and eventually finding one person who does it for you is usually referred to as being graysexual or gray-asexual. You might read some stuff on the gray areas and see if you can find a word that fits!

      Thanks for the support. 🙂

  2. Waraji says:

    I have only heard genuineness and thoroughness in everything Swankivy explains about asexuality. I am heterosexual and have learned a lot!

  3. Joy says:

    Well said. I was attracted to women for years before becoming attracted to men, and now I prefer men but maintain attraction to both. There’s no shame in being whoever and whatever you are right now. (There’s an Emerson quote about that, but I can’t think of it right now.)

    #5 is an especially notable point. What you are doing or not doing right now still counts.

  4. retro says:

    Ugh, I hate this mentality that some people have about asexuality not being as “permanent” as other sexual orientations.

    I had to tell my dad I was asexual because my mom dropped a hint to him. He ended up coming and asking me about my orientation, instead of me telling him when I felt ready. (I wasn’t even sure I wanted to tell him yet at that point. He never seems to take anything I say seriously, even on topics that I know more about than him.)

    After telling him I was asexual, the first words out of his mouth were, “you know that might change, right?”. Keep in mind, not only was I past puberty and clearly not a “late bloomer”, but this was also literally right after I had just told him I had mulled over and researched asexuality for half a year before I was even hesitantly sure that it described me.

    I told him that the idea of me suddenly not being asexual was probably as likely as him suddenly having a different sexual orientation, but I don’t think he was listening to me anymore because he kept rephrasing his question. Then he said, “ok. Just make sure that you aren’t limiting yourself.” and left the room.

    I would have loved to yell, “Limiting myself? what does that even mean!?” at him, but I knew him too well to not know what he meant. He didn’t want me to cling to my asexuality “label” when my “real sexuality” came around the corner.

    Even though it’s not impossible that someday I might not identify as asexual, and I’m not scared to find a new word to describe myself if that ever happens, it shouldn’t change the fact that the orientation I use to describe myself should be taken just as seriously as any other.

    Even though I was only told not to limit myself to my orientation when it was clear I wasn’t heterosexual, I’m no more likely to change than any heterosexual person is.

    Tl;DR: I agree wholeheartedly! Great article.

  5. Laura says:

    Great article! I think that sexual fluidity is a topic that tends to be overlooked or disregarded so I’m glad to see that addressed here. Dr. Lisa Diamond’s book is excellent, although it doesn’t discuss asexuality, and I recommend it for anyone who wants to learn more about sexual fluidity.